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02:07 pm
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live footage from last night's show
Act of Contrition, an older and quieter song. Unfortunately the microphone settings on the videocamera were up way too loud, this is the only footage that had listenable audio. Lesson learned.
Tags: act of contrition, esoteric tapioca, live
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11:45 am
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Tamagoyaki!
I really love the show Yakitate!! Japan.
It's one of my favorite anime series. The characters are awesome and it's really really weird. And funny.
I learned how to make tamagoyaki! I CAN'T WAIT TO TRY IT OUT
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12:31 pm
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In addition
I have made this my profile image. I think it sums up everything nicely.
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12:50 pm
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This was my facebook profile "about me" section for a week, until I realized how intense it was.
Overanalytical and cyclic. Well meaning. Good friends. A bit too long-winded. Often people think I'm nervous or neurotic because I never stop moving, when in fact I just love coffee, and I drink so much of it every day that I can't control my limbs. But I'm probably nervous and neurotic regardless.
I am too intense for your to feel comfortable alone with for more than 15 minutes:
Last summer, when we got completely drunk and you invited me over, and we biked to your house 45 minutes away in Pilsen at 4am, but then, feeling sick - and realizing that I was perhaps too intense for you to invite to sleep over, even only on your couch - you sent me home, drunker still, alone in the night on a bike that I had only just purchased that day and barely felt comfortable riding yet, even sober- until the next morning a few hours later, when you called and invited me to an abstract breakfast diner omelet kingdom, which I agreed to go to (I didn't yet know at the time the universal truth of my too-intensity or I might have declined), and after my arrival and further scrutiny, where you must have silently decided that you never want to see me again in that context because I am too intense, you decided that I'm too intense.
If you weren't such a good kisser I probably wouldn't have minded so much.
Now, I'm not trying to scare you, or off-put you to the idea of being my friend. I'm not even sure if "too intense" is a bad thing, really. I think it means that I say exactly what I think and especially to people I think it about. This is usually what I believe is a truly great quality, worth commending, and which - because perhaps of a combination of enormous ego and my masochistic heart-sleeve-hanging scientific method of finding the true nature of friendship and love - I perceive as highly important, and probably unfortunately as an infinitesimal-and-barely-noticeable-except-to-me type of quality (whether physical, arbitrary, intrinsic or otherwise). This fills me with an excitement that I thereafter cannot contain- so much so that I will have to tell you in a 9 page email right away, so that you may hopefully understand how tremendously wonderful this quality is and be validated and feel more confident and excited about knowing that someone appreciates this barely noticeable but tremendous thing about you.
Unfortunately, this only would work if I was someone who wasn't intense, and so, instead, sadly, probably most of the time people just think I'm creepy.
I'm trying very hard not to be too intense.
Oh, I make music, too.
It is much less intense than me.
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01:48 pm
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new art
I hadn't painted in a while. And recently started to think about why I started to begin with. It was because I was a normal little kid, into guns, army men, transforming mecha robots, monsters, and video games.
So I got a bunch of free canvases from a friend and sat down and started painting a generic hockey-mask clad villain. But I wanted to make him seem kind of vacant and human, and not actually have him holding any kind of weapon or exuding any kind of anger or rage or anything negative at all really. So here he is:
I realize the picture's not the best quality, I took it with my phone. But you get the idea.
I think the next one will be a bored vampire girl.
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08:29 pm
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news
there's a new song up on the e.t. myspace. "eft up". To sum up: it's kidding on the square, mang. kidding on the square.
<3
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11:49 am
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flaws
I am honest, and intense.
When I am enamored of something, it consumes me completely.
I feel things with my whole being.
I refuse to let my bad experiences build a wall around me.
I will never lie to you.
Current Music: psychedelic horseshit - portals
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09:05 am
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this is part of my job
http://www.mcachicago.org/media_player/index_vid.php?id=23
I filmed this last tuesday. I also filmed this same artist, Theaster Gates, last night as well. He's just amazing to watch, I'm going to have more clips up on the site as soon as I have time to edit them. The camera I have is a pretty nice one, but the tripod has a friction head, so all the pans are very bumpy. I've taken to holding it like a monopod, up on one leg, letting the optical stabilization do the rest.
I don't know who the woman singing is, but she was amazing. The whole performance was. There's this space for local artists in the museum called the 12x12. Every month someone from Chicago is featured there, and it's my favorite room in the museum. Tuesday is the free day at the MCA. Theaster has been doing a performance in there every Tuesday this month, and next week will be his final one. If you're in Chicago on Tuesday, you should stop by around 5pm, and watch it. It's really something.
I love my job.
Current Music: modern world - wolf parade
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09:36 pm
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geek news update
Okay, once upon a time there was a game for the playstation one, called Persona. It was called Shin Megami Tensei in Japan, and it was a very solid and mature themed RPG with an interesting system of "persona", or demons that the user could control and battle other, crueler demons with. Like scary pokemon. With a great plot. There were 3 sequels in north america. Persona 4 was the most recent, and has been called the Playstation 2's swan song game, garnering 100% and 5 star ratings across the board. I almost bought it today, because I've always enjoyed the way these games have felt over the years (Great character development, excellent story, and interesting anime graphics that remind me of some of CLAMP's best work) - but I didn't. Which is okay, because after I did a little research I found this site:
Shin Megami Tensei - IMAGINE
Which is a free-to-play (I can hear you shaking your head now, but bear with me) mmorpg version of this series. It just entered open beta testing on January 1st. There are demon-combining systems, and apparently the community is already pretty decent in the game. I hope it's not some stupid grind-and-find hack of WoW.
I'm really excited. I'm downloading it now.
I really like the art direction in this series, so I'm hoping I won't be let down. The graphics in the videos and screenshots look a little dated, but it's still only beta. I don't exactly have the best pc hardware anyway, so I'll be happy if it runs.
Anyway, I'm done geeking out now. Resume normal-adult life.
Tags: i am a giant rpg game nerd once in a whi
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12:41 am
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clever
whats interesting is that I remember most of the names of these guys.
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09:30 am
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update
I played a show at Heaven Gallery in wicker park on Thursday night. The line-up went me, then Mark Trecka of Pillars & Tongues, and then Dark Dark Dark. DDD is probably one of the greatest bands I've been lucky enough to see three times here, and opening for a band I actually truly love the work of was more than a little daunting and amazing at the same time. Everyone said they really enjoyed my set however, and even my Mom and older Brother got to come to the show and check it out. Neither of them has ever seen me play and the look of pride in my mother's eyes was validation enough for me. I only forgot the lyrics half way through one song but I made up for it by saying something funny. A few people who had seen me perform before said that this was my best set to date, and that the flow of the songs was noteworthy. It was a very good night, one I won't forget.
I'm playing a show tonight as well, at a new gallery/loft space a little south on Kedzie and Carrol called The Barbara and Barbara gallery. It should be a little zanier and I plan to play the louder songs that I trimmed off the set list for Thursday's show.
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03:48 pm
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Facebook graffiti ist rad
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11:19 am
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Your Spiritual Number is One
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You bring a strong, positive energy into other people's lives.
Your intentions are pure, and because of this, you are powerful when you act.
Right now, your life is both about new beginnings and closure.
It's not an understatement to say that your whole world is changing.
No matter what comes to pass, you are ready to tackle it.
You have the ambition and drive to have your life turn out the way you want it to.
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This is, unusually, very accurate to how I've been feeling these past few months.
::nods to teef::
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10:47 am
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snow slow
The internet is crawwwwling today at work. It's snowing pretty steadily out there, but you'd think by this day and age, snow would have little to no affect on internet connectivity. I'm pretty sure we have very fast connection, considering this is a museum and all. I've been getting calls from the box office, the store, admissions, and pretty much everywhere else in the building that has personnel working the weekend concerning the phenomenon. What's funny is that pretty much all of these departments, except maybe the box office, are just using the internet to browse the web, since Saturdays are pretty much boring for everyone. Sorry, kids. You'll have to postpone G-chat with your mom until tomorrow.
I've been messing around a little with facebook's graffiti wall app. I hate almost all of the facebook add-on apps, and in fact, I hate the layout, structure, user interface, almost everything about facebook. But there's something that feels a little less grade-school about it than myspace. And they're much sneakier about their ads. Not as sneaky as Google/Gmail however. Does anyone use twitter? I'm not even sure what it's all about, I've heard it described as a cross between instant messaging and facebook's wall.
At least the internet on my G1 is screaming fast. Too bad I only get a decent signal outside the cement-walled, windowless bomb-shelter-design of this office.
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12:45 pm
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wallpaper
I got bored at work yesterday and printed off 16 of some of my favorite movie posters and put them up behind my desk on the wall where most sane people have things like calendars and cork-boards and those kind of productive things.
Fuck that. That's why I have a smart phone.
Here I am enjoying my new surroundings.
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10:12 am
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Boring to anyone but me: Xubuntu installation on a PPC (iMac G3)
I just installed Xubuntu - a lite version of Ubuntu, on an 400mhz iMac G3. Work was going to throw it away, and I was like, you know, I'm sick of my sisters going in my room and using my computer and downloading a bunch of crap on my desktop, and I don't want to have 5 people logged into my XP all day long while I'm at work. I'm going to salvage this archaic bastard, and revitalize it. So I did some research on linux distros that had these features:
1) ease of use
2) visually appealing
3) idiot-proof
I'm not saying my siblings are stupid or anything of that sort. I'm just saying if I'm going to put this little iMac dood on the Island in the middle of our living room so people can just log on, check email, upload crap to flickr, whatever it is these kids do nowadays, I want this thing to be as easy as pie to transition to from XP, so they won't go sneaking back into my room to use my computer.
I would've just left OS 9.2 on there, but it doesn't support any of the newer browsers that are out, ie. firefox. And I would've put leopard on it, but the hardware is too ancient to support it. Plus I like linux. I really really like linux. If there was just more awesome games for it, I'd switch over completely.
So after two days of install failures, I finally got through the installation, and it boots up pretty quick! Browsing is actually a snap too. I'm not even sure how much ram is in this little guy.
My next goal is to build a box (I have one collecting dust at home, an old p3) to put next to the TV in the living room as a media server, primarily for streaming netflix to the TV. Eventually I want to put a wifi card into it and a 1tb hd, use it as a remote server for sharing music, hooked up to the stereo. With the G-mote app installed on my G1, we could have a party and I could change the playlist dynamically, browse songs and change volume on the fly from my phone through our wifi network. Yeah, I know what it all basically amounts to. Laziness. But this is the kind of stuff that makes me twitch with child-like glee! Actually that's probably more due to my constant intake of coffee.
List of material things that I want in order of usefulness:
1) contact lenses
2) a loft bed/loveseat combo for my bedroom, also an area rug
3) a 24"+ lcd for my bedroom
4) a new bike by the spring (this I will build myself, from the ground up.)
5) a new computer that can actually do serious video editing and run games and 3D rendering apps (this I will also build myself, probably buying a piece here and there until I'm ready to put it all together.)
I really don't need one, now that I have the G1 (as it basically does everything you'd need a smartphone to do) but I kind of want a netbook. It's unnecessary, sure. But look how adorable they are!
They're like little baby notebooks. It would certainly be convenient too, especially riding a bike everywhere, when ever ounce you're carrying counts. I would definitely put linux on it, in one form or another, maybe Kubuntu 8.10 (if it'd run), and probably use CelTX with it quite a bit.
Barf.
Current Music: Dance Band - Mississippi
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05:14 pm
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Looks bad. REALLY bad.
I heard this was coming, and I don't know about Hal Turner, I've heard he's a pretty hateful character, but if what he's saying is true, be prepared for some serious shit hitting the fan. This is scary in the most ludicrous of ways.
Addendum:
Quoted from the wikipedia entry on the Amero:
"The inspiration behind these rumors may have been the posting of images of medallions created by coin designer Daniel Carr.[1] Carr, who designed the New York and Rhode Island 2001 statehood quarters, sells medals and tokens of his own design on his commercial website, "Designs Computed" (also known as "DC Coin").[1] Among his designs are a series of gold, silver and copper fantasy issues of "amero coins" ranging in denomination from one to one thousand.[1]"
Apparently Hal Turner is a white supremacist jerkoff. But then again, wikipedia's not the most reliable source of information, exactly either. And who knows if it's all propaganda to make this guy look like a moron?
You never know. I guess we'll find out in '09, huh?
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11:25 am
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BAM
I single-handedly shut down the entire museum's network- including the store, all the offices, and the wifi and entire internet access- for about 20 minutes yesterday when I plugged what looked like a wireless router directly into our network. It was actually a wireless bridge, and the router that it was talking to was also plugged into the same network. It caused what it known as a broadcast storm. Luckily I realized what I had done before any real damage was done.
I'm learning a lot. And I'm learning the hard way, unfortunately.
Hopefully this networking class I'm taking will help!
Current Mood:  embarrassed
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09:48 am
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intimidation bayou
I need to maximize the space in my small bedroom. It has a very high ceiling, so I think a loft bed will be a good asset. I'd like to get a 24" lcd for my pc too, so that I can put a small loveseat under the loft and have my desk and pc act as a little movie theater for me when I want to watch movies in my room. I'm not so sure I'll paint it, as it seems like a time consuming process, especially when I consider how meticulous I can be regarding things like that. I just want my room to be cozy. I think maybe I need some kind of clothes organizer of some kind as well. Maybe a trip to IKEA would be a good idea. I have ample closet space, but only for hanging items. I think I saw some kind of hanging clothes-system there once. Oh, swedish efficiency. How I long for your clean, stainless steel surgical embrace. I think I'm going to buy a new jacket this week. I've had the same one for 6 years or so, and though I love it, it doesn't have much in the way of insulation. I would go to village discount or some similar thrift warehouse, but this time of year it can be hard to find decent winter apparel at such places.
Today I have a meeting where we will discuss how ugly our intranet is, and how I will be responsible for it not being ugly anymore. I designed a pretty simple but attractive 3D MCA logo for the background of the personel directory yesterday. My boss was elated.
Holy shit- when did my life get so boring?!
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09:02 am
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Lost in Transition
Yesterday was pretty interesting. After work I hung out with Mandy and her girlfriend Emily, and their room mate, Liz. We ate spaghetti, b&w cookies, and drank wine. We listened to Peter and the Wolf, Crystal stilts, and Medicine Head. We laughed and bonded over life experiences. I really liked all three of them. They have a fantastic room mate dynamic and balance each other out well. After that I went home, which is only two parallel streets away from them, conveniently. When I arrived, there were couches full of friends watching Cold Mountain. I honestly don't know what all the fuss about this movie was about. It was like Titanic on a mountain during the civil war. Only 1000x more depressing. And badly acted. I KNOW- it was a shock to me too. P. S. Hoffman was the show stealer as the lecherous priest. It was filmed like a theater production and acted similarly as well.
I'm writing this on the blue line train to Jackson, where I get off and switch to the Red line. This commute generally takes me 2/3rds more time than riding my bike usually does. I got a flat a couple days ago and haven't had time to fix it.
I found an interesting flash multi-user drawing app. Iscribble.com
It's pretty ok, I like that it has 3 layers. The user galleries are impressive, to say the least. I'm almost at my stop now. I just know it's going to be the best day ever!
Current Mood:  awake
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